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Thursday, September 30, 2004
i hate this____ of ppl. fine. i dun need you to notice me. after what all of u did to me. Sunday, September 26, 2004 YIKES!!!!! -JUMPS OFF THE BUILDING- i just found out another horrible truth!!! why must the world be against me? why must people be so insensitive?? why must ppl lie to me? no one apparently noes how much im suffering yarh? stupid. i hate all of you. STOP BEING SO NICE TO ME IF U HAD NEVER MEANT TO! i never knew im so easy to cheat. Friday, September 24, 2004 all those people i've comforted or spurred on... im sorry im making empty wishes. wad right do i have to comfort or spur all of u on when i cant do it myself? Tuesday, September 21, 2004 ppl, dun scare me anymore. i relle cant take anymore blows. Sunday, September 19, 2004 my love an empty street an empty house a hole inside my heart i'm all alone the rooms are getting smaller i wonder how i wonder why i wonder where they are the days we had the songs we sang together oh yeah and oh my love i'm holding on forever reaching for the love that seems so far so i said a little prayer and hope my dreams will take me there where the skies are blue to see you once again my love overseas from coast to coast to find the place i love the most where the fields are green to see you once again my love i try to read i go to work im laughing with my friends but i can't stop to keep myself from thinking oh no i wonder how i wonder why i wonder where they are the days we had the songs we sang together oh yeah and oh my love i'm holding on forever reaching for the love that seems so far so i said a little prayer and hope my dreams will take me there where the skies are blue to see you once again my love overseas from coast to coast to find the place i love the most where the fields are green to see you once again to hold you in my arms to promise you my love to tell you from the heart you're what i'm thinking of reaching for the love that seems so far so i said a little prayer and hope my dreams will take me there where the skies are blue to see you once again my love overseas from coast to coast to find the place i love the most where the fields are green to see you once again my love Wednesday, September 15, 2004 thanx ppl. for caring. maybe this world just isn so cruel after all. or maybe its onli some ppl with great enough impact creating traps in my life. mugging like mugs. lols. wad a stupid thing to sae.. makes no sense. slacking online. dun wanna be caught. cya tomms. -it just isn fair. u dunno how much i hate your attitude. and im actually straining all ive got to keep myself from exploding. good luck. Tuesday, September 14, 2004 although there are some ppl who trusts in me, i still dun feel the security. whenever i see some of the other ppl in the canteen, i feel like taking a shotgun to shoot them or shoot myself. i think its a feeling.... called. nevermind. i relle **** ppl who accuse and malign ppl without evidence. they have reasons. but not evidence. and the reasons? i cant make out where they took it from. i think this thing cant be resolved. cos ive been hated by some ppl and was kept in the dark until other parties told me. it relle isn.... i dunno how to phrase. i can sae tt tve been shocked until i cant sae anth. i cant confide in anyone. not classmates. they dunno anth. not huahuiredbadge. no way. they hate me to the core for no particular reason. whos left? option 1 of 1: senior. and... i think jiayi suspects that i do it. no choice now. i tried to look for others. kemin. no chance. others. not close. wad can i do. yiling arhs. you are my onli hope. when will i ever get the chance to tell you? wo tao yan ming yun. Sunday, September 12, 2004 i noe ure chiku. ur talking and words are all your style. thanx for saeing all tt. they came at the right time. thankeww. although u may be thickskinned and all:D hahas... im so glad theres someone who trusts me(or do you?). ilu. i relle didn do anth. why must all of you be dead set on saeing its me? and giving all those half invalid reasons? wad if this happens to you instead? wad would you think? dun u noe how hurting it is? all these accusations. you think it is very nice to hear someone tell you the rest of the world is against you? it isn fun actually. and i relle dun have so much time to create trouble for ppl and myself? im already having troubles at home. anyone noes im banned from tv and comp? everytime i sneak here and got caught, i get scolded? and its like, i get scolded everydae? my mother seldom had smiles for me . u think tt's nice? my dad is seldom home. u think tt's great? my brothers are over 20. you think they'll play with me? the onli company is my mother and all i get from her is scoldings scoldings and more scoldings. and when i had chances to use the comp would i use the chance to do something so childish and stupid? no one noes wads going on with my life. so stop STOP all this nonsense. im getting relle sick. im getting depressed. and now my mum and me is having a cold war cos i tried to make things better to understand for me last night while using the comp. you think i want all these to happen? you ppl are making life miserable for me. and you think im making life miserable for you? think on. dun be so self centred. it is so ambiguous to noe yall are so childish. have you ever heard me sae i love huahui? noe why izzit for? will i love huahui if i possess hate for anyone? and something to add. the ppl accusing me of being stupidity and weilism are the same grp of ppl. and i noe hu u are. so look here. if im weilism and i think yall are bootlicking seniors, would i become stupidity and sae i myself bootlick seniors? wad the crap is that?? think abt it. dun jump to conclusions. theres alot of loopholes that can be discovered. who noes. that person might just be you. redbage blog. go. Friday, September 10, 2004 forgot ta mention this nice lil thing.. mie family was bored todae... namely my mom dad and me.. so we went to play badminton. the venue abit stupid larhs. was like the highest floor of the multistorey carpark? hahas. have been playing w my dad this whole week. and i still dun improve. -shakes head- he's still making me run left run right run up run down for the shuttlecock.*tired* then i played w my mum.. the last few months i played w her, she's always the one picking up the ball. then todae.... i died in her hands! i was like running here and there agn after playing w my dad! then i watched them two play instead. and, they're like enemies on the battlefield!! so scary! very POWERFUL!! they hit damn hard and hit damn high, giving sharp smacks and making each other run like siao! hahas.. they're 46 oredi u noes.. didn noe they have more strength and stamina than me T.T" so malu:( but anywae.. there longest game lasted abt 3min! without dropping the shuttlecock.. pei fu pei fu... hahas. was reminiscing mie past by looking at the long long ago entries below. i had just set the blog to put all my entries onto one page... and -looks down- i realised... my life revolved ard stnics and my mother. lols. and the most one is huahui of course... im not sure i'll blog so much abt huahui in the future. cos... nevermind. monica: i blogged that b4 i talked to you.. but relle larhs. i do understand. but.. its just like a dagger just pierced thru my heart, and the would is still there. even if it recovers... it'll leave a scar. music proj tomms. hope we can... complete it? cos in my experience we're not gonna complete in her house. hahas. but marianne the lioness there.. we should be able to control ourselves? hehhs. am forcing lou to cook her nice maggi mee for me. hahs. she wants to charge me... nvm. shall... FORCE her^^ yi tian tu long ji is nice. im smitten with it. tog w my bro and my dad :) Thursday, September 09, 2004 i cant help feeling___. who wouldn. for a very long time, h**h** has been my jing shen zhi zhu. now... it cant be anymore. monica... i dun care if u pursue the thing anymore... but it still hurts to noe that you had suspected me. and the rest of the people. saying im not angry is cheating myself. but i guess i cant get over it....yet. but kah, thanx for the confidence u have in me, thou u had once suspected me too, but... anw thanx:) can i still trust anyone? all the people i see have so many masks on their faces. i thought.... nevermind. i finally get the meaning of : "life in unpredictable." ppl have ups and downs. im like downs and downs. wadeva. dun wan ppl to think im PITYING myself. i have a backbone. sae wadeva u want abt me. im clearheaded. Tuesday, September 07, 2004 comeon. i'l forget abt you. u dun worth my tears or my happiness. ure just somebody not satisfied with me. and tt's ur prob. ate at macs w lou near 445 before setting out for the cip thing.. sausage mcmuffin with egg!! -stomach growls- went to seletar farm after tt. a pet farm. i always tot it was in seletar... and guess wad. its at SENGKANG. lols! im so stupiddd theres such a nice farm so near my estate and i noe nth abt it until todae -.-" very shi bai i noe larhs. saw alotta pets/animals!! eg. KITTENS DOGS chickens ducks (black)swans fish goat HORSE flamingoes.. and alot more i forgot the names!! omg the animals were so nice and cute!! auntie choryong gave out the food to feed the animals.. everyone wanted to feed the horse but they weren given the horse food. guess wad? I GOT IT!!! everyone was like 'wahhh i want!!' then i was like 'okayokay later later' they ask everytime they notice the food in my hand kkaes. so cute. got to feed them. the horse's face is like... -unbelievable look- .... so long!!! fed it once. didn like the feeling much but the horse's relle cute! :D one of its eyes was blue. bright light blue. cos its blind. so poor thing. and it was once a racing horse at the turf club!! ahahs.. then the sleeping goat woke up... ppl trampled over ppl to feed it! then the horse felt jealous(i guess) and came over.. scared alot of ppl!!! ppl went screaming when they realised the horse sniffing their bags and backs. hahas. and i got horse mucus(i think! ewww) and saliva on my class tee! cos i was holding the horse food in my hand and i din realise.. it was aiming for it! lols. stupid me. anw.. the kitten's damn ke ai!! i was the onli person given the opportunity to carry it? then every kid there was so envious^^ hahas. i like tt farm! shall get my dad to bring me there somedae. :) went macs agn after the whole thing. shared mcwings w lou. getting fat. felt so guilty that once i reach home i dragged my dad out to have a badminton game w me! lasted 2 hours. and the tummy's gone:) ahahas!! im a happy lil kid todae:) Monday, September 06, 2004 stupidity i want to sae. you are so relle stupid. u dunno how i feel. wad makes you think im doing all those things you saed? u think i relle enjoy being the solo sec1 of my ju? u think it is FUN? i tell you. u totally dun understand me. u think it is nice being the onli sec1 in the ju when everyone just think ure a baby and isolate you, pair up with the ppl they are close to and leave u in a corner to cry? now im sure ure from huahui. senior or sec1. im so utterly disappointed with you. i tot we were all bonded. except one or two onli. and i dun think ure that one or two. ure someone else watching ppl from behind and acting nice in front of them onli to cover up for ur own evil comments deep in your heart? im sorry. all you have is a wide range of imagination. whoever you are. just get lost. i dun believe huahui produces this kind of people. ure totally a shame. im not feeling exactly happy right now. and tomms im supposed to go to seletar farm with the kids im taking care of in block 445 for cip. now that brightens things a lil. :) Sunday, September 05, 2004 im becoming nerdifies. cos of the pushed forward eoys. -pouts- so stupid larhs.. less time to slack. but i relle cant slack anymores. altho i have pulled myself up agn.. im afraid of dropping headlong down back to the original state. the person holding qihang03 vcd! i'll(not me.. carebear will) be coming after u after the prelims! cos i want to watch. hehs. hahas!! i shall be waiting waiting.. Friday, September 03, 2004 just heard 'duo ai wo yi tian' by energy on the radio. feel so happy when it comes on. like, its one of my fav songs that brings back so many memories from 6A. reminds me of 'gei ni de ge'. i will cry everytime i hear this 2 songs..i feel that i didn cherish those happy times in 6A. anw. the radio just played 'yi ren yi ban' by oudeyang :) another nice song i like to listen. btw.. if u are mistaken by teh tagboard there -points right-: danfong meant the entry below -points down- sept2! kae larhs. hols liao. going lil india tomms. im tired. i cant wake up tomms. Thursday, September 02, 2004 i dunno why wad's the matter you made this happen and brought misery i thought u were a good friend a pal who noes? backstabber traitor liar u get wad i mean. Wednesday, September 01, 2004 i feel so accomplished todae!! i did so much work.. for the upcoming math common test. i did all morn to the evening.. math probs and qns.. now im getting qt sick liaos. here to take a break. and please ppl... theres something called a GUESTBOOK... so..*hint* tagboard is onli superficial.. if u plan to type alot.. please visit the gbk.. it'll welcome u alot thanx.. hahas. huahui sec1s rock. except. wells. i cant disclose here. i think without that person, we'll be more bonded? and its becos of her destroying that creates misunderstandings between us? i dun mean me. but many ppl are involved. im sick of seeing this. i've seen this so many times. being an outsider. i see all the rights and wrongs. pang guan zhe qing. so well. i hope u'll grow up. fast. otherwise just get out from this cca if ure not devoted to it. anw. my brains full of numbers now. cos of the math i did? numbers swimming.. lols. |
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